Saturday, February 25, 2017

VESPERS AT THE END OF THE SABBATH: PRAYER: Lord, I Am Sure!

Lord,
I Have Been Foolish!
I Asked You
Often
To Talk To My Hand
Not To My Heart
When I Was Indulging In 
"Self-sufficient Me!" Time
Ignoring The Fact
That
You Are Gloriously Divine!
Please Forgive Me!


Lord,
Like A Giddy-Headed Teenager
I Vowed
Not To Give Away My Whole Heart
To You
So That If Our Relationship Foundered
I Would Not Be Totally Devasted
When You
Tired Of Me
Should Depart!
I Bow My Head In Shame!
Please Raise Me Up!


Lord, Forgive Me
For I Treated You
As If You Are Mere Man
Temperamental
Testy
Of Attention Short-Spanned
Fickle
Unregenerate
Given To Ignoble Deeds
And
Quick
To Kick The Can!

I Repent Of My Folly!

I Disremembered
That You Are Holy
Faithful
Kind
Eternally Loving
Unfailingly True!
I Forgot
That You Are Friend
Soul-Lover
Holy God
Sustainer
Savior
Shepherd
And
Provider So True!

Help Me Ever Remember The Living Truth!

Lord,
I Want Us To Start Over!
I Want To Belong To Only You!
I Can See Your Hand
Being Held Out!
I Can Hear Your Gentle Voice Calling
Which
I Do Remember
Never - Ever -  Shouts!

I Can See Your Face
Tear Stained
Sorrowing
Over My Straying Ways
And
I Feel So Empty
Because
We Have Not Connected
Truly Connected
In These Recent Days!

My Praying Has Been So Shallow, Lord
And I Beseech You Help Me, Please
To Get Out From Under This New Low!


The Things
That I Should Do
Are The Things
That I Don't Do
And The Things I Don't Want To
Are The Very Things Walking About
Wearing My Dress Shoes!
Lift Me Up, Lord
For You Are Able
Not Fable!


Lord,
I Don't Want To Live
Like This Anymore!
I Desire Constant Communion With You
Before I Move A Finger
Before I Walk Though A Door
Before I Make A Decision
Before I Utter To Another
Even A Single Word!


I Desire You
To Be My First Thought
My First Word
My Every Breath
Spent
In Denial Of The Goat Leader
And His Boastful Herd!


I Desire With You
Oneness
My Will Wrapped Up In Yours
And
Your Word
My Every Desire
For
I Yearn
For My Voice
In Heaven's Grand Choir
One Day Soon
To Be Joyfully Heard!

I Am Pouring Out My Heart
To You, Lord
For
I Know That You Care!


I Know That You
To Death
Loved Me
And To Life Will Raise Me
And This Is Why
As A Little Child
I Approach You
Drawing Nigh
Without Fear!


Father,
Fix My Shortcomings
My Backslidings
My Willfulness
My Selfishness 
And

Waywardness
For
My Heart
For You
Is Longing
And I Am Begging ... Please?!


I Love You!
I Desire To Live In Your House!
Help Me To Walk Through Your Open Door!
I Am Ready, Lord
And
Now
I Am Sure!
Oh, Lord, Forgive!
Oh, Lord, Hear And Do!
In The Name Of Jesus Christ The Righteous
I Stand And Plead!
AMEN.