I Once Had A Personal False God
That Daily I Worshipped Lovingly In My Big Wall Mirror!
I Winked!
I Waved!
I Smiled!
AND
I Embraced It
For My God
For Me
Always Would Deliver!
I Was Born With The Sin Nature
AND
I Was In Wilful Opposition To The Living God
Who
- It Appeared To Bright Me -
Desired Just Because He Gave Life To Me
That I Put His Will Before Mine
AND
That My Heart To His Heart Ever Be Inclined!
It Wasn't Working!
You See ...
The King James Bible Told Me
That My Life Is A Gift
AND
The World Tells Me
I Owe No Man Anything But
"Thanks!"
For The Present
So ... I Could Not Understand
Why The Gift Giving God
Wanted More Than "Thanks!"
For His Gifting My Life To Me!
It Seemed Kind Of Greedy To Me!
Then, One Day ...
It Was Brought To My Attention
That The Creator Of My Life
Made Me For His Own Pleasure
AND
His Having Given Me My Life
AND
My Free Will
Was For Me To Give Back To Him Freely
So That He
In Turn
Would Make Me His Peculiar Treasure
AND
In The Fullness Of His Time
When
With My Permission
He Has My Character Refined Into His Image
AND
I Have Endured To The End
All The Tests In This Life That Are Mine
That The Giver Of The Best Gifts
Will Remake Me
AND
Take Me
To His Heavenly Home
Where God's Eternal Light Shines!
Huh?!
Hmmm ...
Ahhhmmm ...
Uh huh ...
Alrighty Then! Yes! Yes!
I Feel You!
So ...
What About The False God
That You Had In The Wall Mirror?!
It And I
Are Ever In A Battle!
I Must
By Prayers To God
Cause The God Of Self
Daily To Fall!
It Is A Constant Struggle
AND
At Times
I Get Well And Truly Bruised
BUT
I've Chosen The Gift Giver
For My Leader
AND
Self Has No Choice But To Lose!
I Once Couldn't See My Own Sin
For Self-God Was A Lying One In The Din!
I Placed My Self Before My Soul's Salvation!
I Had Made Peace With The Fraud!
I Was Interesting!
I Was With Self Smitten
AND
I Was A Blinded Fool
Used By Satan Like A Cheap Tool!
I Behaved Just Like Satan!
I Could Only See Self!
I Loved Me To Distraction!
I Cared Not For My Soul's Health!
BUT ...
One Glad Day
A Chink Appeared In The Mirror
AND
A Wrinkle Was Revealed In My Face!
A Wrinkle Was Exposed In My Spirit
AND
Mirror-God Couldn't Fix The Chink Nor The Wrinkles
AND
I Knew Then That A Non-Fixing God Is A Disgrace!
I Bowed My Head And My Heart!
I Stepped Out Of The Den Of The One Dark!
AND
I Apologized To The God Who Gave Me Life
For All The Times I Did Of Him Snark!
I Removed "Constant I" From My Vocabulary
AND
Instituted
"Yes, Lord!"
"... You, Lord!"
AND
By Faith
This Child Is Avidly Seeking After The Gift Giving God
Who Provides
Without Our Having To Ask!
Thank God For Grace!
