Showing posts with label Self-Deceit. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Self-Deceit. Show all posts

Saturday, December 5, 2020

VESPERS AT THE END OF THE SABBATH: STOP DECEIVING YOURSELF: I Commend You To Jesus Christ The Lord!

I Thought I Was Doing The Lord A Favor
By Permitting Him To Bless Me!
I Said A Prayer According To Need, Want
Wish, Desire, Out Of Covetousness
Greed, Discontent And, Again, Need
And 
Waited For The Lord To Deliver For Me Right Away
Because
I Wanted What I Wanted When I Wanted It!
Truth Is
Of More Guts Than Sense, I Surely Had Me A Lot!

I Was Like A Pig On Speed In Slop! 
Feed My Need Was My Screed! 

I Mean, After All
He, The Lord, Owns The Cattle On A Thousand Hills!
He Says The Earth Is His!
He Says That He Is The Shepherd
And That I Should Not Want!
He Said That If He Were Hungry He Wouldn't Tell Me
So That Means He Doesn't Need Anything From Me, Personally
Because 
He Has Told Me To Ask Him For What I Want
And 
He Will Give It To Me Because ... As He Says
He Loves Me ... Sacrificially!

He Said To Trust Him
Because 
He Is My Refuge And Strength!
He Said Test Him Love
And 
See That He Will Do Abundantly More
Than I Can Think Or Ask For
So That's What I Did!

What I Did Not Do Very Often
Or, If At All, With Any Gratitude 
Was To Say:
"Thank You, Lord!
I Love You, Lord!
I Love Being In Your Presence, Lord!
Lord, Please Draw Me Nearer!
Lord, Please Draw Nigh!"

One Day, I Looked In My Big Mirror
And 
What Did I See!?!
Nothing But A Big Wriggly Blood-Sucking Leech!

I Had Religiously Taken 
My Access To The Lord Of Life For Granted!
I Took Sustenance But Gave None In Return
And Suddenly
I Realized An Uncomfortably Inconvenient Truth
That Made My Heart Lurch
And
My Life's Blood To Run Ice Cold:

If The Lord ... The King Of Love
Removed Me From The Source Of My Life
From My Prosperity In Him
I Shall Become ... Dust
Which ... With Even A Light Wind
Just Blows Away ... Away ... Away ...!

In Shame, 
I Turned To The Gift Given
The Blessed Gift Called Healing Prayer!
Comeuppance Led Me From Self
To Aggressively, Drastically, Turn Away!

I Heard
Give ... And It Will Come Back To You
Good Measure
Pressed Down
And Running Over!

I Heard
Lean Not On Your Own Understanding!

I Understood
Everything That I Do For Christ Prospers
Because 
It Is Blessed!

I Finally Learnt That 
It Is More Blessed To Give Than To Receive
And
I Felt Relief
And
Experienced Release
Because
At Long Last I Knew ... I Know ... That
I Am Allowing The Holy Spirit Of Truth 
To Do A Good Work In Me
And
I Am Awaiting The Great Day When
The Lord Will Finish What He Has Started In Me!
I Am Blessed 
And 
I, At Long Last, Truly Know It! 

Brethren, Beloved,

I Serve The Risen Savior Who Provides For Me Every Day! 
No Matter My Position, I May Approach Unto Him By Prayer! 
He Encourages My Promotion To Hill Zion
The Blessed City Of The Eternal God 
And 
By The Protection Of The Holy Angels Excelling In Strength
He, Moment By Moment, Protects Me From The Wiles
Deceits And Gross Machinations Of Satan
The Devil
The Piercing Serpent
The Condemned And Damned God-Fraud! 

I Encourage You To Follow My Master, My Savior
My God, My Redeemer And My King
And 
You Shall Find Out For Yourself, My Dear One, That 
His Sacrificial Love For You Knows No End! 

I Commend You To Jesus Christ Our Lord 
Who Personally Loves You 
And 
Offers You The Position In His Heart 
Which Provides You Life ... Eternal Life
The Life Of Love And Peace That 
Has Nothing Called ... The End!