I Was Looking At Myself
And One Day I Saw
Me
Bargaining
With The Lord
And When
Through The Spirit
I Realized What It Was I Had Been Doing
I Knew That I Was Going
Down
The Wrong Path!
In Shame
I Asked My Self:
How Do You Bargain
With The One Who Made
You
AND
Who Maintains You
As A Soul Living?
How Do You Bargain
With The One Who Gives
To You Highest Heaven
As The Blessed Attainment
For Your Soul?
How Can You Bargain
With The One Who Holds
The Planet
Your Home
In The Palm Of His Hand?
How Do You Bargain
With The God Who Knows
The Numbers
Of Every Beach's Grains Of Sand?
How Do You Bargain
With The God Who Numbered
The Strands Of Hair On The Head
That You Are Now Holding In Your Hand?
How Do Your Bargain
With The God Who Knew
You
Before You First Gripped A Finger
On Your Mother's Hand?
Ashamed
I Turned To My Father
The God Of Heaven And Earth
AND
With Tears Of Contrition
I Said To My Lord:
Father,
I Was Bold
And I Fearlessly Believed
That I Could Bargain With Thee!
I Was Foolish, Dear Father!
I Spoke Arrogantly!
I Indulged Myself In Presumption
Behaving As Though
We Were Mates!
I Was Behaving Like The Very Devil
Whose Sin You Surely Hate!
Father, I Am Sorry!
Forgive Me, I Pray!
Turn My Heart
From That Consuming Broad Way
And Guide Me
Along Your Straight And Narrow Way!
Father, Help Me
To Accept
What I Receive From You
In The Reading Of Your Word
And Help Me To Stop Trying
To Be A Big Head
Acting Like The Intelligent
Know-It-All's Of The World
Who Are By Satan Fed!
Father, I Desire To Walk
As Your Compliant Child
No Longer Willing
To Walk On The Wicked And Wild Side!
Lord,
When You Give Me A Biscuit
Instead Of The Loaf Of Bread
For Which I Did Plead
Help Me To Accept
My Biscuit With Gratitude
Realizing That There Are Others
Who Will Be Grateful
For What I Upon
Daily Freely Feed!
Forgive Me, Lord
For My Presumption
For My Willingness
To Believe I Can Walk
By My Self
And Still Turn To You For Direction
So Humbly
Yet Lyingly
As I Once Prayed!
Help Me, Dear Father
I Don't Want To Earn Satan's Pay!
Forgive Me, Dear Father
For Heeding Self
And Walking Proud
And Acting The Fool!
I Love You, Lord
Please Continue To Feed Me
With Your Blessed Food!