VESPERS AT THE END OF THE SABBATH: SATISFACTION IN SIN: Balaam Beor

Balaam Beor
Was A Fraud
AND
A Prophet
For Whom Satisfaction Came
Only From Profit!

Balaam

Son Of Beor
Beat His Faithful Ass
Until The Lord Gave It A Voice
Which Caused
The Profit-Driven Prophet
To Answer It
As Though It Were Human!

He Didn't Have A Choice!

Balaam
Knew God's Truth
BUT
Being Of Deceitful Ilk
Petitioned The Eternal
- Not In Innocence -
To See If God
Would Think As He Thought
So That He Could Get His Grubby Hands
On King Balak's Coinage
That Would

In His Loving Hands
- By His Ecstatic Rejoicing -
Gloriously Clink!

Balaam Sold Out His Soul To The Devil
Because
Greed
In His Soul's Armor
Was A Really, Really
Really Big Chink!

It Was A Big Hole!

So Big Was That Hole
That A Whole Satan
Walked Comfortably Through
Never Touching The Edges
So That Balaam Thought
- Wrongly -
That
He Was Doing His Own Do
Never Realizing
- I Conjecture -
That Practice
Wears A Nun Robe
AND
Did Not Recognize
That Against The Living God
He Had Become
A Raw Sinner
Another Adversary
- Pretend Friendly -
AND
Studiedly Bold!

A Little Sin
- Cherished -
Becomes
A Lot Of Sin
- Relished -
AND
You Can't Control It
For
It
- Triumphing -
Controls You!

Your Life Becomes Hellish!

The Story Of Balaam
Is
A Cautionary Tale
A Tale With A Tail
That Does Constant Flail
At This Time Of The End
When Men's Hearts Do Wax Cold
Where Love For The Other
Is Something To Be Sold
When Profiteering Is Laudable
Where Faith In God Is Laughable
Where Truth Has No Beauty
AND
Love For The Living God Is A Nasty Cootee!

I Ask You, Brethren
To Sincerely Search Self
For The Chink In Your Character
For That Lesson In Your Book Of Life
For Which You Always Score An "F"
Because
That Is The Lesson
Which Will Continue To Be Your Test
Ever Getting Harder As It Pertains To Jesus Christ
AND
Ever Easier As It Pertains
To The Base Perpetrator Of Wickedness And Vice!

Think On This ... Carefully:

Just As An Innocent Oyster
Is Impregnated
In Under A Minute
- So As Not To Immediately Kill It -
With A Grain Of Sand
To Make It Produce A Precious Pearl
So, Too, Are We ... But In An Instant!

The Difference 

Is Who Is Doing The Impregnating
AND
For What Purpose
AND
Do We With It Agree!

Oysters Have No Say
In Their Impregnation
AND
They Also Have No Say
In What Color Pearl
What Size Pearl
What Iridescence
It Shall Produce
BUT
We Do!

Balaam Beor
Was Known
To Be A Prophet Of God
Known To Work Enchantments
Known To Utter Curses
Knew The Ways Of God
Had Great Light From God
BUT
Willfully
Wickedly
Knowingly
Treacherously
Greedily
Disobediently
Used It All
For The Glory Of Satan
The Base Fraud!

Satan Is A Thief
A State-Line Robber
A Murderer
Who Impregnates
To Kill Twice
BUT
Jesus Christ
By His Holy Spirit
Indwells
To Give Us
Abundant Life Now
AND
Eternal Life Later!

What Is In Your Soul?
Is It The Light Of Life
The Glow Of Heaven
ORIs It The Seed Of The Serpent
The Bloat Of Corrupting Leaven?!

When You Know WHAT In You Grows
You Will Know WHO Causes It To Grow!

What Are You Raising
For Your Harvest?!

Balaam Son Of Beor
Got The Sword Of Damnation
In His Chest
Because
Those Who Willfully Cause Others To Sin
Get The Same Punishment
As Those Committing The Sin!

Think, Dear Ones
On These Things
AND
Convicted
AND
Convinced
Let Jesus Christ
Of Your Whole Life
Be
The Crowned And Reigning
Laboring King And Captain
To Direct Your Life
AND
Fight
All Your Battles
Against The Adversary Of Souls
Who Cherishes The Night!

Look Unto Jesus The Christ
AND
Keep Heaven
In Your Eye Sight
For
Night Comes
AND, THEN

The Getting Up Morning!
Judgement Morning!

I Am A Child Of The Living God!

I See The Living God
Above
Around
Beneath
Before Me!

I Feel The Living God

When I Utter
A Believing Child's Prayer!

I Touch The Living God
When In Faith
I See To The Needs Of Another

AND

Daily Communicate With Him In Prayer!

I Walk With The Living God
Because
He Is To My Heart
My Soul
My Mind
My Being
Wonderfully Gloriously Dear!

I Live For The Living God

For He Is My All And All

My Creator

My Sustainer 

My Provider

My Salvation 

My Peace

My Rest

My Way

My Light

My Redemption

My Beginning

AND

My End!

I Taste Daily Of The Living God

In His Eternal Living Word

Which Is Food And Life

AND

A Delight To My Soul

AND

Not Empty Fillers As Sugared Candy

Necessary To The Sinful Bold!

I Bless The Living God

Because

I Am A Daily Recipient Of

His Matchless Grace 

AND

Free Mercy

AND ALSO BECAUSE

Without Him To Be My Guide

I Would Be Fit And Tied Prey

For The One Who Did To Eve Lie!

Bottom Line ...

I Am A Child Of The Living God

The King Eternal

AND

The Lord Of Glory

AND

I Believe

Trust 

Hope In

Worship

Honor

Wait For

AND 

Obey Him

Because I Love The Living God

AND

I Hold Him In Godly Fear!

What Say YOU?!

Finally ... I Was Listening!

The Rock Of Ages
Cleft For Me
When I Beheld The Lamb Of God
Crucified
Riven
Broken
On Calvary!

I Looked
AND
I Saw
Jesus ... Besmirched
Looking Like Me
AND
Saving Me
By Taking My Place
AND
Hanging
Accursed
On That Cruel Death-Tree!

"Faith Changes Things!"
I Heard My Own Voice Say
As I Acknowledged
AND
Accepted That
The Lamb Of God Died
To Take My Sin Away!

Glory Came Down
To Give Me And My Kind Glory
BUT
- Instead -
By My Sinful Kind
Ended Up
All Beaten
Spat Upon
Nailed Up
Pierced Through
Lifted Up
AND
Vile-Looking Gory!

What A Fellowship!
What A Joy
Now
Is Mine
That I Am Leaning
On The Everlasting Arms!

My Lord Arose!
My Lord Rose Up!
My Lord Is In The Most Holy Place
Of The Heavenly Sanctuary
Reconciling Me To The Father God
Fixing My Title
For I Am Redeemed
AND
That Makes Me
- In Jesus -
Clear
On The Father's Books!
In Jesus
I Have No Devil-Attached Hooks!

I Caused The Holy Christ Pain!
I Brought To His Heart Shame!
For I Long Before
Had Ignored His Call
To Take Hold Of The Lifeline
Needed For Salvation
Because Of Satanic Deception
AND
Willful Sin
AND
Willful Sinning Man's ... Fall!

I Had Looked Back!
I Had Fallen Behind!
I Had Turned Away From Light!
I Had Chosen
Satan
And
Had Gotten Carried Away
Until
That Great And Glorious Day
On The Dusty Road
When I Heard That Voice ...

How Long Has It Been

Since You Talked With The Lord?

How Far From Home Will You Run

Hoping

To Break The Ties-That-Bind Cord?

When Will You Acknowledge

That You Are One Weary?

When Will You Call The Father

And

Beseech Him

To Let You Come Home

Even As You

Acknowledge That

You Are A Child Of The Dust

Rolling Around In

And

Covered With Sin

As A Hard-Shell Crust?

Why Don't You Call Out

To Him Now

And

Plead With Him

To Save You

From You Own Self?

I Heard The Voice Of Jesus Say:

Come Unto Me ... And Rest!

I Cried:

Father, Lead Me
Day By Day
For
This Land Is Not My Land
And
I Do Not Want
For My Own Sin
At The Appointed Time
To Have To Personally Pay!

Furthermore,

I Reached Out My Hand
AND
I Touched The Hand Of The Man
Who Stilled Waters
Who Healed Disease
Who Raised The Dead
AND
Who Prayed Daily
Constantly
- On His Knees -
- To His Own Father -
For Strength
In The Garden
Alone!

Suddenly ...

It Was Heaven In My Heart
For I Found Jesus
Who Had Been Calling For
Seeking After
Wayward Me!

In The Sorrow Of My Weary Soul
I Cried ...

Dear Lord And Father Of Mankind
Forgive My Foolish Ways!
Please, I Beseech You
Henceforth And Forever
Help Me To Give Of My Best
To My Master!

AND ...

Standing On The Promises
Which Cannot Fail
I Shouted ...

I Am Delivered!
No More Night!
Praise The Lord!

I Heard My Jesus Say ...

Hold The Fort

For I Am Coming To Earth Again!

Cast Now Away Your Confidence!

Give Your Burdens Unto Me

And Leave Them There

For

I Am Just A Prayer Away!

Brethren ...

I Walk Through Life's Storms
AND
I Hold My Head Up High!
I Am No Longer Afraid
Of Sin's Dark
For
The Light Of The World
IS
The Light Of My Life
AND
The Lies Of The Devil
No Longer Have Power
To Make Me Want
My Eternal Holy God
To Flagrantly Defy!

I Walk Today Where Jesus Walked!
I Am Tempted
AND
I Am Tried
BUT
The Promise Is Given
To All Who Believe
To All Who By Sin Are Oppressed
AND
Still Love
AND
Still Trust
AND
Are Still Looking For The Coming
Of The King Of Love
Who Jesus Christ My Shepherd Is
That
There Is Glory In The Cross!

The Marvellous Grace
Of
The Loving Lord
IS
Sufficient For Me
- No Matter What -
For I Am Running This Race
For The Win
Confident
Of The Great Day Of God's Reward
For
All Day
AND
All Night
God's Angels Are Watching Over Me!

I Have A Mansion!
I Have A Crown!
I Have A New Name
For
I Know That He Who Has Promised
Will
With The Glory Of The Father
The Angels
AND
Himself
From Heaven
- Split Open -
For Me And All The Faithful
Soon To Earth
Be Coming Down!

I Sing ...!
I Raise The Song Of Jubilee ...

Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!

For
I Have Laid My Burden Down!

I Sing Praises To God!
I See The Promise
In The Flowers That Grow!
I See Renewal
In All The Changing Scenes Of Life
AND
I Say ...

When He Cometh!
When HE Cometh
To Take Up His Jewels
By God's Grace
I'll Be A Bright One
For I Am Beloved
AND
I Am His Own!

I Will See Jesus
Just As He Is
For
The Strife Is O'er
All To The Formalities
When Christ Comes To Claim His Own!

I Have Victory In Jesus!
I Have The Blessed Assurance!
I Have Hope For Today
AND
Faith
To Face Tomorrow!

I Say To My Soul
Be Still And Know
That He Is God!
He Is The God That Feedeth Thee!
He Holds The Whole World Is His Hand
AND, YET
He Lives In The Heart Of Me
For
His Indwelling Spirit
Comforts Guides And Chides
AND
Because I Am Listening
He In Me Abides!

All My Other Helpers Failed
AND
All My Creature Comforts Did Flee
BUT
Faith First
The Lord ... Being My Vision
I Am Telling The World
That
Jesus My Savior
Now Pilots Me!

I Know That My Redeemer Lives
AND
For This
I Utter
A Joyful Allelujah!
AND
The Seven-Fold

Amen! Amen! Amen!
Amen! Amen! Amen!
AMEN!

Idolatry!?! + PRAYER: Father, You Are My God!

I Don't Get The Fascination With Idols And Idol Worship!
Those Things Are Cringe-inducing
Gross
BUT
There Are
Have Been
Nice Things
- Not Considered Idols But Dearly Cherished -
With Which
I Did Once Willingly
Elope!

Sumptuous Food!
Lovely House!
Expensive Motor Car!
Nice Jewelry!
Hot Companion!
Clothing!
Shoes!
Vacations Afar!

I Never Thought My Stomach An Idol!
I Never Thought Of My Car As God!
I Never Considered My Career As Holy!
I Never Considered Jewelry Would Raise Me Up
Above Par

Until ...

The Day
I Had A Real Talk With King Jesus
AND
He Advised Me
Simple
Plain
That Anything
Which Occupied His Place In My Worship
Was My God!

The Statement 
Was Enough 
To Make The Blood In My Head 
Drain!

I Was 
Appalled!
Offended!
Distressed!
Light-headed!

Was Is It True?
Was Am I Bowing Before Other gods?

... Realization ... Slowly ... DAWNED!

Not Possible
BUT
Still True
I Had Set Me Up gods
Which Could Not
Save Me
Or
Give Me
Anything!

Lord Almighty,
I Am
- To Positions
Possessions
Privileges -
Become
An Idol-worshiping Slave!

Father,

Forgive Me

For This Gross Folly

For Permitting Another

In My Heart

To Occupy Pride Of Place!

I'm Sorry To Have Been So Foolish

And

For Bringing To Your Name Such Disgrace!

I Have Reordered

The Grace Of My Worship!

All False gods

Have

With Fervor

Been Destroyed!

You, My Lord

My God

The God Of My Salvation

My Soul Is By You

Now

Engrossingly Employed!

I Will Have No god That Can't Me To Heaven Lead!

I Will Have No god That Will My Eyes Tantalize And Deceive!

I Will Have No god That Has Not A Hearing Ear

And

Which Definitely 

Decidedly Cannot 

Hear My Heartfelt Prayer!

I Have Learned The Living Song

And

I Trust You, Father

The Living God

Who Can't Won't Let Me Down!

I Will Worship Only You, Lord

The Holy God

My Maker And My King

For

Everything Else

Is The Work Of Satan

To Turn Seekers Upside Down

With Gross Lies

And

To Destroy Our Hope 

Of

Going With Jesus Christ

And

Heaven Our Home Making!

Father,

Help Me This Day

To Walk Faithful And True With You!

In Jesus' Name

I Make My Plea

And

Take My Stand!

I Love You, Lord!

AMEN.

My Heart's Desire

I have No Desire 
To Be Popular!
I Have No Desire 
To Get Me Outside Of My Self!
I Have No Desire 
For A Faith That Is "Okay!"
On or Off
The What-not 
Misplaced Item
Rubbish Shelf!

I Have No Desire 
For Compromise!
I Have No Desire 
To Be One Of Anybody's Insider Group Clique Gang!
I Have No Desire
To Play At With True Christianity
AND
Thank God
I Have No Desire 
To Pretend Jesus Christ Is Not The Savior
But A Bother 
AND
A Nag!

I Desire 
To Walk As One Holy!
I Desire 
To Know The Lord  Not As My Judge But As My King!
I Desire 
To Walk The Pathway Straight and Narrow
AND
No Longer To With Satan
Go A-Prancing!

I Will Pray!
I Will Pray Without Ceasing!
I Will Sing 
To and Of My God Along This Life's Way!
I Will Heed
The Admonitions Of The Holy Spirit
AND
I Will On God's Holy Word
Each and Every Day
Feed!

By God's Great Grace

As I Live

and

Breathe

I Will Bless My God 

At All Times!!

Developing Calluses

I Had Acquired A Callus 
On My Left Index Finger
Which Made Me Think 
Wonder
About Getting A Callus On My Heart
OR
Worse
Perhaps Developing
A Calloused Heart!

Neither Prospect Comforted Me
For
The Nature of A Callus
Means
A Breach Has Been Made
AND
There,  Therefore
Is Now
A Disunity
AND
Because of That Breach On In My Skin
There Is Pain
Real Pain
AND
The Real Prospect
Of Real Infection
AND
Real Disease
Getting In!

I've Been Using A Nearly Invisible Head
Lace-making Crochet Hook
One That I Had Not Used For Many A Year!
The First Stitch
Ripped My Skin
I Said: "Aiiee!"
I Made Another Stitch
And Repeated The Sequence Again
Until The Point Of Contact
Was Ripped To Shreds
AND 
I Was Feeling The Pain!

Over The Next Couple Of Days
Stitch, Aiiee,  Stitch, Ouch, Stitch
Became
Stitch,  Hmm,  Stitch,  Stitch, Ahhm, Stitch, Motif Done!

THEN ...

On Day Three
My Index Finger
Had Made A Physical Change!
I'd Awakened That Morning
With My Finger Discolored
Hardened
Feeling Quite Strange
And The Crochet Needle
No Longer Caused Me To Wince,  Cringe or Exclaim!

My Body Had Accepted The Breach
AND
The Breach Had Become A Part Of Me!

I and The Breach Were Now One!

This Discovery Held Serious Implications For Me
AND
Opened My Eyes
To The Methodology Of Sin and Sinning!

It Also Showed Me
The True Meaning of Repentance For Sin!

It Also Showed Me Why Lust Of The Eye and
By Extension Lust Of The Flesh, and 
Pride Of Life 
Are Particularly Dangerous For Humans
AND
Destructive To Believers!

A Callus
When Hardened
Renders One Impervious
To The Darts
Rubs
Tears
Grinds
Of Wickedness ... Sin
Breaching The Heart Soul!

No Pain!
No Sorrow!
No Bother!

No Bother!
Sin Boasts!

Sin Boasts!
The Soul Becomes Toast!

If You Don't Want 

A Calloused Heart

Keep The Holy Word

As A Living Barrier!

Look Unto Jesus

and

Walk Work Right

to

Finish The Mission

 With Loving Eyes Holy Bright!

The Praying, Petitioning Jesus!

Jesus Prayed!
Jesus Prayed for Me
AND
With His Pray
He Was Nailed By My Sin
AND
Deemed Accursed -
He Was Hung
Suspended
Between Earth and Sky
To Save Me
And All Believers
Who Will Bow At The Name
Of Jesus Christ
Immanuel
Lord of All Seen
AND  
Unseen Domains!

In and Of Myself - Unworthy -
I Had Me No Right
To Approach 
The Throne of The Father
Requesting Assistance
My Battles To Fight
BUT
Jesus - Holy Jesus -
Said:

"Father, This Child I Do Claim
And All Of Like Posture
Who Shall Pray To You
In My Name!"

I Hung On Their Cross!
I Took On Their Sin!
I Was Their Payment
Breaking Satan's Every Chain
Which License Only Leads Them
To Destruction Once
Yeah, Twice
BUT
Father, You Accepted
The Willing Sacrifice!

My Offering Was
The Just
For
The Unjust!
I Claim Them! - We Love Them!
We Call Them Our Own
AND
In The Day of Your Appointing, Father
We Are Bringing Them
To Our Home
Where Blessings Are Eternal
Where Rest Is Eternal - Sweet
Where Peace Is Eternal
Where Wings Are As Feet
Where Water Is Living
Where Our Light Is As Air
Where Nevermore Again
Our Beloved Children
Will Know
The Ravages of Sin
AND
It's Attendant Fear!

So, Father
Blessed Father
Grant This Child
Your Peace
AND
Godly Fear
To Live Holy
Ever Looking Up
Toward The East
With Great Anticipation
Of The Day That Will Dawn!
The Day When The Chosen
The Believers
Will Arise - New!
Immortal!
At The Last Trumpet - Reborn!

Bless Them
AND
Keep Them
Until That Great Day!
Father, Our Children
Are Home Bound
AND
There Is Much Hope
In Their Rejoicing
For We Keep Their Hearts
Until The Day Dawns
Singing,  Rejoicing
Saying:

"Going Home!
Happy Day!
My Sins Are Washed Away and
I Don't For Them 
Have To Personally Pay!
"Going Home!
Oh, Happy Day!"

Jesus Christ Has Paved My Way!
I Live In Him
AND
God's Grace Leads The Way!
The Lord's Holy Spirit
Grants Me Peace and Sweet Rest
AND
I Shall Stand Firm
AND
I Will Pass The Test!"