From This Moment On ...! + PRAYER: I Cannot Live Like This ...! Lord, I Love You!

I Had In My Heart
A Little Jesus
AND
I Had In My Heart
A Lot Of My Self!
There Was A Battling Raging
AND
Each Desired The Other
To Take A Knee
On The Back Shelf!

I Often Talked A Walk
I Was Not Walking!
I Often Walked A Talk
About Which I Was Uncomfortable To Enthusiastically Speak
AND
This Was Making My Life Uncomfortable
AND
I Really Needed Heavenly Relief!

PRAYER:

Lord,

I Can Not Live Like This Any Longer!

Please, Do Something For Me!

Open My Eyes

My Ears

My Heart

My Head

Grant Me Understanding!

Lord, God Almighty

Please Grant Me Some Relief!

I Did Not Hear A Stern Voice Speaking!
I Did Not Even Hear A Soft Voice Whispering Inside My Head
BUT
With The Passage Of Time
I Noticed
That Past Pleasures Seemed Asinine
AND
I Was More Toward Faithfulness
To God's Ways
Steadfastly Inclined!

Nonsense Made No Sense!
Defiance Was No Defense!
Recalcitrance Made Me Seem Dense
AND
I Was Studiously Eager
To Get Off
The Waffler's Shaking Fence!

I No Longer Found Pleasure In Waywardness!
I No Longer Found Pleasure In Walking The Contrarian Way!
I No Longer Found Pleasure
In Arguing For Both Satan And God
AND
Finally Recognized
Realized
That I Did Not At All Like Trying 
Against God
To Be In The Right!

Prayer Changed Things!
I No Longer Wanted With Jesus Christ
A Mere Fling!
I Wanted A Commitment!
I Wanted To Belong!
I Wanted To Be With The Lover Of My Soul
AND
I Wanted The Relationship
To Be Permanently
Enduringly
Forever Long!
I Wanted Us!
I Wanted In Him To Never Grow Old!

PRAYER:

Lord,

I Love You!

You See 

Know

My Heart

Better Than I Do!

Please, Won't You Take Me 
In Your Loving Hand

And

Be To Me
My All And All?

When I Ignore You

I Feel Scattered

And
Bereft!

Please, Hold Me

Enfold Me

Keep Me Close

To That Sacrificial Heart 

In Your Spear-Pierced Side
That Sin Cleft!

Forgive Me

For My Myriad Follies!

Forgive Me

For Giving In To My Lying Wants
Adjudged To Be My Needs

But Was Indeed My Gross Greed!

Forgive Me

For Doubting Your Living Holy Word!

Forgive Me

For From You Looking Away!

Forgive Me

For Giving Place To The Devil!

I Am Sorry, Lord!

Forgive Me!

I Beseech You, Please

Is My Penitent Heart's Humble Pray!

From This Moment On

Help Me

In You

To Be Strong!

Give Unto Me Music

For My Satisfied-With-Jesus Song

So That

In The Day A-coming

I May Joyously Sing 

With The Redeemed

In The Overcomer's Glorying Throng!

Thank You, Lord

For Hearing And Answering My Prayer

Presented In The Name Of My Lord

Jesus Christ The Righteous
In Whose Faith I Live
And Breathe!

AMEN!