Showing posts with label Playing With God. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Playing With God. Show all posts

Saturday, July 30, 2016

VESPERS AT THE END OF THE SABBATH: FICTION FRUIT 'N FACTS: Sin Has A Cost + PRAYER: Forgive Me, Lord








I Was Looking At Myself
And One Day I Saw
Me
Bargaining
With The Lord
And When
Through The Spirit
I Realized What It Was I Had Been Doing
I Knew That I Was Going
Down
The Wrong Path!

In Shame
I Asked My Self:

How Do You Bargain
With The One Who Made 
You
AND
Who Maintains You 
As A Soul Living?

How Do You Bargain
With The One Who Gives 
To You Highest Heaven
As The Blessed Attainment 
For Your Soul?

How Can You Bargain
With The One Who Holds 
The Planet 
Your Home
In The Palm Of His Hand?

How Do You Bargain
With The God Who Knows
The Numbers 
Of Every Beach's Grains Of Sand?

How Do You Bargain
With The God Who Numbered 
The Strands Of Hair On The Head
That You Are Now Holding In Your Hand?

How Do Your Bargain 
With The God Who Knew 
You
Before You First Gripped A Finger
On Your Mother's Hand?

Ashamed
I Turned To My Father
The God Of Heaven And Earth
AND
With Tears Of Contrition
I Said To My Lord:


Father,
I Was Bold
And I Fearlessly Believed
That I Could Bargain With Thee!

I Was Foolish, Dear Father!
I Spoke Arrogantly!
I Indulged Myself In Presumption
Behaving As Though
We Were Mates!
I Was Behaving Like The Very Devil
Whose Sin You Surely Hate!

Father, I Am Sorry!
Forgive Me, I Pray!
Turn My Heart
From That Consuming Broad Way
And Guide Me
Along Your Straight And Narrow Way!

Father, Help Me
To Accept
What I Receive From You
In The Reading Of Your Word
And Help Me To Stop Trying 
To Be A Big Head
Acting Like The Intelligent
Know-It-All's Of The World
Who Are By Satan Fed!

Father, I Desire To Walk 
As Your Compliant Child
No Longer Willing
To Walk On The Wicked And Wild Side!

Lord,
When You Give Me A Biscuit
Instead Of The Loaf Of Bread
For Which I Did Plead
Help Me To Accept 
My Biscuit With Gratitude
Realizing That There Are Others
Who Will Be Grateful
For What I Upon
Daily Freely Feed!

Forgive Me, Lord
For My Presumption
For My Willingness
To Believe I Can Walk
By My Self
And Still Turn To You For Direction
So Humbly 
Yet Lyingly
As I Once Prayed!

Help Me, Dear Father
I Don't Want To Earn Satan's Pay!

Forgive Me, Dear Father
For Heeding Self
And Walking Proud
And Acting The Fool!
I Love You, Lord
Please Continue To Feed Me
With Your Blessed Food!
AMEN




Saturday, June 27, 2015

VESPERS AT THE END OF THE SABBATH: I Surrender The Nails!






Why should I look in The Mirror?
What is there so special that I must see?
Why is it important to look there?
Is there something there to revere?

I look in the mirror!
What do I see
Nothing but an Old Sooner
Looking back at me!

I see a pimple, a bump, a bruise!
I see an Image holding a loose screw!
I will not look deeply!
You can't make me!
I refuse!

Looking too deeply
Brings up bad news!
Of being immoral, willful, even unwise
Of #PlayingWithGod
Of half truths and white lies
Of lusting and listing
Lampooning and Gaffes
And worshiping at altars
Laid for Golden Calves!

Naked!
Most giddy!
Drunk on #NewWine!
Bowing to Jesus but showing my behind!

Teasing the Tawdry!
Twisting to taunt!
Showing myself Righteous!
Kissing The Scamp!

Telling The Old Story
From The Profiteering View
Praising I-God
And snuffing out The Truth!

Alright!
Enough already!
I don't like this Review
Either get away from me or me renew!

This state of constant conflict is wearing me down!
Either you fix me up or put me, lay me down!
I need to rest!
Enough is on my chest!
I can feel it swelling!
Oh, God, give me Blessed, Sweet Rest
For I am at the end
Of  My Rope and My Chain!

This is The #DayofDecision!
Lord, You I now claim
For my Eternal Portion
For my Peaceful Plot
Untie, Lord, untie me
Before me my Blood clots
Chop You, Lord, Satan's Dread Knots!

Put Life's Blood on my Skin
Run The Water through my Veins
Give me #RighteousGarments for
I humbly surrender The Cruel Nails!