Why Did You Do It?! + Prayers

KJV Isaiah 41
God Is With His People 10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
13 For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.

Lord,

Have Mercy ... And Help Us!

Help Us To See That We Do Not

As True Believers

Walk Alone! 

Help Us To Trust You

Where We Can't 

With Our Mortal Eyes

Trace You!

Help Us To Unfailingly Love You In Faith

For 

- To Be Saved Into Your Eternal Kingdom -

We Must!

I Have Been Painstakingly Reading The Facebook And Instagram Posts Of A Devout, Kind-Hearted, Christian ... Who Committed Suicide.

I Have Been Reading The Responses To, Tributes About, And Notes Of Regret From Ordinary Friends, School Mates, Co-Workers, Family, And Christian Friends Of A Committed, Active, Working For Christ, Praising, Believing, Trusting, Grateful For Salvation, Hopeful For Redemption Christian Who, Hours After Celebrating Faith In The Lord Christ, And Leading Out In Worship In The Sanctuary, Committed Suicide.

Not One Solitary Soul Saw It Coming.

All Hearts Are Torn And Are Sorrowing.

This Picture Makes My Blood Run Cold Because There Are Too Many Hard Questions That Need Answering ... And No Obvious ... And Soft ... Comfortable Answers Forthcoming.

This Is The Third Time, In The Last 20 Years That I Know Of A Christian Committing Suicide:

Demographics:

One Female, Two Males
One Married, Two Singletons
Two Teachers, One Casual Worker
One Doctor, One Master, One Learner
One Twenties, One Thirties, One Fifties
One With Children, Two Without
Two Professionally Known, One Virtual Unknown
All Believers In The Lord Christ
All Dearly Loved
Not. One. Clue. Given. ... As To What Was To Come.

Legacy:

• Doubt About What Love Can Do
• Doubt In The Love Of God
• Doubt In The Grace Of God
• Doubt In The Salvation Of God
• Doubt As To Whether, Indeed, JESUS PAID IT ALL.

Questions:

• Why?
• Where Was Faith?
• What Is Our - Not God's - Definition Of Faith? 
• Why Were You Leaning On Your Own Understanding?
• Why Was Suicide The Only Option?
• Where Was Our Jesus? 
• Where Was The Holy Spirit? 
• Where Was The Guardian Angel?
• How Did Satan Pull This Off? 
• Why Was Satan Able To Pull This Off?
• Did You Forget To Believe?
• Was Your Problem Bigger Than Your Faith In The Holy God?
• Why Did You Choose To Give Up On Ever-Sufficient Grace?
• Did You Forget, Or Momentarily Disremember, That Forgiveness For Known Sin Is Free By Confession And Repentance?
• Did You Forget That There Is Mercy For Me (You)?
• Did You Forget That Grace Is Bigger Than Sin?
• Were Your Eyes So Clouded With Sorrow For And Over Self That You Willingly Chose To Close Them, And No Longer Be Able To See Christ And His Sacrifice ... Just For You?
• Is There The Almighty God?
• Is Almighty God Really Real To Every Man?
• Is The Almighty God Able?
• Is The Almighty God Capable?
• What Is There That The Almighty God Can't Do?
• What More Could The Almighty God Have Done?

Jesus Christ IS The Only Answer.
What Was Your Question To Him?

How Do Christ's Sacrifice, Purchased Salvation, And The Very Public Actions Of An Assumed Born-Again, Regenerated Sinner Called Christian Turned Suicide, Intersect?

What About The 6th Commandment - Thou Shalt Not Kill? Exodus 20:13

Suicide Is Self-Murder!

What Of No Murderer Getting Into Heaven?

KJV Revelation 22
15 For without are dogs, and sorcerers, and whoremongers, and murderers, and idolaters, and whosoever loveth and maketh a lie.

What Of Murderers' Only Inheritance Being The Second Death?

KJV Revelation 21
8 But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.

Is There Extenuating Circumstance That Would Permit A Suicide Into Heaven?

Does The Almighty God Change His Word To Suit Our Circumstance, Our Situation, Or
Our Sorrow?

KJV Malachi 3
6 For I am the LORD, I change not; therefore ye sons of Jacob are not consumed.

KJV Hebrews 13
8 Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever.

Why Do We Doubt When We As Christians Have That Certain Hope?!

Why Does The Bible, The Living Word, The Word Of God, The Transcript Of God's Character Say ... Do Not Doubt?

AND

Warns About The Result Of Doubt?

Do We Not Understand, Or Truly Believe, That Doubt Is A Gross Sin Against The Eternal God Who Gave His All, His Best, So That We May Have ALL - Absolutely Everything -
That We Could Need To Survive, To Spiritually Prosper, In This Vale Of Tears?

When, When, When Will We Start To Believe - As Does A Child - That Our Father's Arms Are Ever Safe, Ever Comforting, Always Comfortable, Always Available, Always Here?

Brethren,

These Are Dread Times In Which We Live.

I Shall Here Utter My Usual Refrain:

Things Are Not What They Appear To Be!

I Shall Here Beseech You:

Do Not Trust Your Carnal Eyes!
Do Not Trust Your Emotions!
Do Not Build Your House On Feelings!
Do Not Walk On The Road Called "What Will People Say!"

Do Not Buy Into The Social Media Garbage Of

Shaming!
Being Shamed!
Feeling Too Ashamed To Live!

AND
Suicide Is A Cure For Life's Hurts!

Sin Is What Exposes Our Nakedness, And Causes Our Shame ... Before Almighty God!

The Living God Doesn't Shame People!
He Calls Us To Salvation!
He Shows Us The Way To Life!
He Desires Us To Drop The Dirt
AND
Carry The Crosses Of Life
To The Christ Of Calvary's Cross
Where There Is Always Room
For One More Sinner
Who Wants To Safely Get Home
Out Of Sin's Decimating Cold!

Please Look Up
AND
Know That
ALL
Of Our Help
Comes From The Lord
The God Of Our Salvation!

Let Us Build Our Hope
On Nothing Less Than Jesus Christ's Blood
AND
His Righteousness!
He Paid The Price
All Our Sin To Cleanse
AND
The Prayer Of Faith
Brings Us To His Home!
He Will Us Defend!

On Christ The Solid Rock
Please, Brethren ... STAND!
Satan Is The Carnal Liar

The Father Of Lies
AND
His Actions Are All Grand Stand!

Satan Is A Toothless Lion!
Christ Did Him Defang
So
Call Him By His Real Name!
He Can't Take You
Out Of Christ's Hand!

Let Us Believe The Living Word
The Truth
The Given Light
The Way Of God
AND
Not The Lost Goat's Twisted Word!

Let Us Love Our Lord Jesus
AND
Trust
AND
WALK
In Our Daily Apportioned Faith! 

Satan Will Roar!
BUT
He Can't Touch You
Unless
You Doubt The Eternal And Almighty God
AND
With The Gross Liar Talk!

Don't Be An Eve! 

Don't Wander Away

AND

Don't Casually Indulge
In Useless Converse
With The Wily Fraud! 

Smoke And Mirrors
Are His Camouflage

So
Get Out Your Hammer Called Christ!
Turn On The Water Of Life!
Call Out The Holy Spirit!
AND
Do A Limpet
AND
Cling To Eternal Life!

Remember ...

The Crown Of Life
Is For Those Who 

Endure 

- To The End -

Carnal Strife
By
Clinging In Faith
To The Lord Christ!

There Is No Second Chance
No Do-Over
At Our One Human Life!

Live In Faith's Expectancy!

KJV Matthew 8
26 And he saith unto them, Why are ye fearful, O ye of little faith? Then he arose, and rebuked the winds and the sea; and there was a great calm.

Every Life Will Have Storms And Rough Seas!

TEARS ARE A LANGUAGE

THAT

GOD UNDERSTANDS!!

Finally ...

I Pray God That If I Ever Find Myself
In A Situation So Dire
That I Can't See The Way
That I Will
With My Cherished Mustard Seed Of Faith
My Hope
My Trust
My Belief
My Every Breath
Call Out
Cry Out
Plead
Beseech
Curse The Devil
Bless Christ
Run To The Rock
Shelter Under The Wings
Hold The Fort
Be Influenced By Good Angels
Be Chided By The Holy Spirit
Lean On Jesus
AND
Cast My Every Care On Him
AND RESTIn The Peace Which He Gives
- Which Passes Human Understanding -
To Awaken Refreshed
To See The Shining Sun

AND

Assuredly
The Son Of Righteousness
AND
Carry On
Walking In The Shadow Of The Cross
Praying The Promises
Looking Up To The Christ Of The Cross
So That I May Live Life In Christ Abundantly
AND
Not In The Lying Gospel Of Carnal Prosperity!

There Is No Hope In Death!

Cliche Or Not
Reach Out To Jesus
In Faith
By Faith
For Faith
AND
Live!

He Who Fights Sin 

AND

From The Devil Runs Away
Will Live To Fight In Jesus Christ's Faith
Another Day!

Hold On!
Don't Let Go ... Of Christ Jesus!

PRAYER:

Lord Of Mercy

Lord Of Grace

We, Your Children

Desire To See Your Face! 

The Battle Is Grievous!

The War Bitter!

The Strength Small!

Help Us, We Beseech You

Not To The Wiles

And

Whims Of The Devil

- In Surrender Of Faith - 

Fall!

In Jesus' Name, Save Us

Is Our Heartfelt Plea!

We Choose To Trust You At Your Word! 

AMEN.

PRAYER: Father, Forgive My Folly!

Father,
Forgive Me My Folly!
For A Moment, Yesterday
In A Fit Of Seeming Madness
I Lived In The Bold Sight Of My Eyes
And
Discontent Near Well Consumed Me!

Please, Won't You Fix 

This Deceitful Man-Heart That Is Mine?

I Am Not Hungry!
I Am Not Naked!
I Have A Sound Roof Over My Head

And
I Have Options:

Eat Don't Eat!
Sleep Don't Sleep!
Walk! 

Run!
Speak To A Brother Sister!
Read A Book!
Do A Stitch!
Feel The Warmth
Of The Sun

And
The Son
And Yet ...!

Father,
I Believe In You!
I Trust You!
I Love You!
I Bless Your Holy Name
And 

I Have The Blessing
Of Your Provision For My Needs
And 

I Know I Serve The Eternal
The Great God Of Grace
Who Has Made
In His Home
For Me A Heavenly Place
And

It Is Only Because Of Your Spirit
That I Realized 

Recognized

What A Mere Moment
Of Inward Focus
Can Create For A Soul!

Lord,
What Happens To Those
Who Have Not Christ
For Their Locus?!

I Have Little
But It Is Enough!
Many Have Much More
But

In The Round Of Daily Discontent
They Desire Great Houses
To Warehouse Their Stores
Of Goods Not Good
Grand Things Not Great
And 

For Satisfaction
To The Devil They Gradually Speed
By Locking You Outside
Their Swollen
Prideful Heart's
Rusting And Locked Gate!

Pity Them!

Pity Us All, Lord!

Let Not Satan 

- By Fraud -

The Faithful Few 

Decimate!

Father,
I Do Not Covet
Another Man's Goods
Nor The Person Of Their Spouse
Their Mechanical Cattle
Their Land
Nor Their House
But 

What I Do Covet 

Is Your Favor
Your Blessing Today
Please, In Mercy
Rid Me Of Those Traits Of Character
- Inherited Or Cultivated -
Those Spirits
Of Discontent
Hate Greed Lust
Faithlessness
Doubt
And
Will To Sin
That Satan May Exploit
To Ride Me Around
Causing Me To Live
In Ungodly Fear
And 

Sinful Doubt!
Lord, Give Them All The Damnation Rout!

I Am Yours, Lord!
Help Me To Guard My Heart
By Not Focusing Inward
But Out And Up
By Doing The Blessed Work Of My Master
And
Offering To Help Another Soul
Be It By Hand Up
Or Help Out!

Father,
The Living Word
Is Daily Being Proven True
And 

With The Working Faith

Of The Forefathers

And 

In The Believing Faith Given By The Holy Jesus
In Whose Name I Make This Plea
Lord,
For My Present Help
- In Humility -
I Look To Thee!
For Your Coming Kingdom

Please Save And Seal Me!
AMEN.