My Heavenly Father Watches Over Me!

The Biggest Failure
Of My Life
Was Doubting 
The Good Faithfulness Of God
Who
Made A Blessing For Me
Out Of A Boldly Malicious Deceit Of The Fraud!

I Have Often Wondered
How Is It Possible
To Tell The Living God
Years Later
One Is Sorry For One's Long Ago Sin

When

The Product Of Your Sin
Saves Your Life -
It's Beyond My Understanding!

This Issue "Tormented"
My Spirit For Years -

Father, How Can I Be Sorry
For A Wrong
When
Months Later
By Its Advent
In Dire Distress
I Was Made Strong -
How IS This Possible?
Open My Eyes Lord!
I Have No Desire To Face The Unconfessed
Unrepentant Sinner's Frown!

And,  Then ...

With The Inevitable Passage Of Time
AND
A Willingness
To Let The Lord Christ
To Me
Be The One Divine
Ever So Often
I Would Talk To God On This Matter!

What I Did
Was Upright Sin
BUT
My God Had Not Me Forsaken
AND
Out Of A Prompted Evil
In Mercy For Me
Almighty God
Over-Rode The Desire Of The Devil
AND
Made A Way
That He For Good
Could Make A Use Of Me!

Sexual Sin
Is Sin Against One's Very Soul!
Thievery
Is Sin Against Someone's Property Or Cash Cold!
Willful Destruction Of A Man's Character
Is A Sin Which Makes The Man Poor
But Doesn't Make Us Rich
AND
Blasphemy
Is Proud Sin
Bold Sin 
Against The Holy God
Who Sits On Heaven's Throne
Which Will Get Us Into Hot Hell
By God's Vengeance
Served Cold!

But I Digress.

It Took Time ... But I Learned
God Is Faithful!
Even Though His Love We Spurn
God Forgives
AND
He Has A Thousand Ways  To Save
That We Not Of!

Sin Has Its Own Reward
But
Out Of Evil
Cometh Good
BECAUSE
God Said:
It's A Promise ...

ALL THINGS WORK
TOGETHER FOR GOOD
To THEM THAT LOVE God
AND ARE CALLED
According To HIS PURPOSE!

BUT ... Be Ye Warned

All Sin Takes A Toll On The Soul
AND
Presumptuous Sin
Is Amongst The Worst
For That Type Sin
Always Births Running Foals
AND
Left Unchecked
Before The Living God
Is Going To Cost The Sinner His Soul!

I Went Before The Lord!
I Explained My Predicament!
I Said With My Mouth
That I Was Sorry
AND
Then Humbly Asked:

Father,  
How Do I
Of This Sin Honestly
With A Contrite Heart
Truly Repent?

The Reply Is Simple
Yet
Profound:

Against Me

Against Me Only

Hast Thou This Sin Done!

I Am Your Father!

I Said To You In My Commandments

Don't Do It

But

You Permitted The Devil

Against Me

To Turn You Around!

Your Sin Is Not In Choosing To Believe

The Lie Of Satan

But In Not Choosing To Believe 

The Truth Of Your God

And For This

You've Borne Many Sorrows

That By Obedience You Could Have Avoided

And Lived In Tranquility

Your Life Long!

Remember Eve And Adam!

The Person With So-Called

 Life And Death Power

And

Food And Shelter

Peace And Security

Even Love

Which Often At Man's Hands

Turn Into Hate Power

Has No Real Power

Nor Control Over You!

I Gave Unto You Free Will

A Measure Of Faith

Grace To Find Help

And Grace For Each Day

And

Against Every Temptation

A Sure Way Of Escape!

All Sin Must Be Repented

No Matter If For God

You Are Doing A Good Work

For

You May Work To Save Others

But

For Yourself

You May Find Your Own Salvation

An Unutilized Heaven-Given Perk!

All Sin Is Against The God Of Heaven
And Is Against
- Over Us -
His Sovereignty
AND
By Giving Place To The Devil
We Are Likening Him
To Heaven's Own Royalty!

I Finally Understood
As
Before The God Of Heaven
One Day I Stood:

Every Check Mark

Has To Have Against It

A Corresponding Balance -

By Repentance Paid ... Sin Erased

BUT

By Unrepentance Left Unpaid ... Against My Name

The Sin Stayed!

If Sin Is Left Unrepented
In The Day Of Fierce Judgment
My Subsequent Righteousness
That Is ... My Subsequent Right Living
Will Not The Death Angel's Hand Stay!

A Christian Has No Excuse
For Sin To Remain Unrepented Of
BECAUSE
Under The Agency
The Prompting
Of The Holy Spirit
- As King David Said -
The Sin Is Ever Before You!

For Many, Many Years
Every Single Night
I Would Say:

Create In A Clean Heart,  Oh,  God ...!
Cast Me Not Away From Your Presence ...!
Take Not Your Holy Spirit From Me ...!
Return Unto Me The Joy ...!
Uphold Me ...!

Until
I Finally Understood Why:

The Sin Was/Is Sinful!
The Blessing Was/Is Real!
God IS The Father
AND
His Ways Never Fail!

Then I
With My Heart In My Throat
AND
Truly Repentant
Repented To My God
In The Name Of My Jesus
AND
I Am  ...  Forgiven!

Satan Cannot Outwit God!

What Was Meant

For My Eternal Destruction

Was Overridden

In The Court Of Heaven!

God Knows Our Hearts!

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When We Choose

To Work With

And

For God

God Mercifully Works On Us

To Remove From Our Person

The Putrifying Sores

From The Fraud

To Gain For Us

His Eternal Blessings!

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Trust God!

He Restores!

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Beloved . . .

Is There Something

Anything

That You Need To Place

On The Altar

Of Sacrifice . . . TODAY?!