VESPERS AT THE END OF THE SABBATH: PRAYER: Lord, I Am Sure!

Lord,

I Have Been Foolish!

I Asked You

Often

To Talk To My Hand

Not To My Heart

When I Was Indulging In 

"Self-sufficient Me!" Time

Ignoring The Fact

That

You Are Gloriously Divine!

Please Forgive Me!

Lord,

Like A Giddy-Headed Teenager

I Vowed

Not To Give Away My Whole Heart

To You

So That If Our Relationship Foundered

I Would Not Be Totally Devasted

When You

Tired Of Me

Should Depart!

I Bow My Head In Shame!

Please Raise Me Up!

Lord, Forgive Me

For I Treated You

As If You Are Mere Man

Temperamental

Testy

Of Attention Short-Spanned

Fickle

Unregenerate

Given To Ignoble Deeds

And

Quick

To Kick The Can!

I Repent Of My Folly!

I Disremembered

That You Are Holy

Faithful

Kind

Eternally Loving

Unfailingly True!

I Forgot

That You Are Friend

Soul-Lover

Holy God

Sustainer

Savior

Shepherd

And

Provider So True!

Help Me Ever Remember The Living Truth!

Lord,

I Want Us To Start Over!

I Want To Belong To Only You!

I Can See Your Hand

Being Held Out!

I Can Hear Your Gentle Voice Calling

Which

I Do Remember

Never - Ever -  Shouts!

I Can See Your Face

Tear Stained

Sorrowing

Over My Straying Ways

And

I Feel So Empty

Because

We Have Not Connected

Truly Connected

In These Recent Days!

My Praying Has Been So Shallow, Lord

And I Beseech You Help Me, Please

To Get Out From Under This New Low!

The Things

That I Should Do

Are The Things

That I Don't Do

And The Things I Don't Want To

Are The Very Things Walking About

Wearing My Dress Shoes!

Lift Me Up, Lord

For You Are Able

Not Fable!

Lord,

I Don't Want To Live

Like This Anymore!

I Desire Constant Communion With You

Before I Move A Finger

Before I Walk Though A Door

Before I Make A Decision

Before I Utter To Another

Even A Single Word!

I Desire You

To Be My First Thought

My First Word

My Every Breath

Spent

In Denial Of The Goat Leader

And His Boastful Herd!

I Desire With You

Oneness

My Will Wrapped Up In Yours

And

Your Word

My Every Desire

For

I Yearn

For My Voice

In Heaven's Grand Choir

One Day Soon

To Be Joyfully Heard!

I Am Pouring Out My Heart

To You, Lord

For

I Know That You Care!

I Know That You

To Death

Loved Me

And To Life Will Raise Me

And This Is Why

As A Little Child

I Approach You

Drawing Nigh

Without Fear!

Father,

Fix My Shortcomings

My Backslidings

My Willfulness

My Selfishness 

And

Waywardness

For

My Heart

For You

Is Longing

And I Am Begging ... Please?!

I Love You!

I Desire To Live In Your House!

Help Me To Walk Through Your Open Door!

I Am Ready, Lord

And

Now

I Am Sure!

Oh, Lord, Forgive!

Oh, Lord, Hear And Do!

In The Name Of Jesus Christ The Righteous

I Stand And Plead!

AMEN.