My Heavenly Father Watches Over Me!

The Biggest Failure
Of My Life
Was Doubting 
The Good Faithfulness Of God
Who
Made A Blessing For Me
Out Of A Boldly Malicious Deceit Of The Fraud!

I Have Often Wondered
How Is It Possible
To Tell The Living God
Years Later
One Is Sorry For One's Long Ago Sin

When

The Product Of Your Sin
Saves Your Life -
It's Beyond My Understanding!

This Issue "Tormented"
My Spirit For Years -

Father, How Can I Be Sorry
For A Wrong
When
Months Later
By Its Advent
In Dire Distress
I Was Made Strong -
How IS This Possible?
Open My Eyes Lord!
I Have No Desire To Face The Unconfessed
Unrepentant Sinner's Frown!

And,  Then ...

With The Inevitable Passage Of Time
AND
A Willingness
To Let The Lord Christ
To Me
Be The One Divine
Ever So Often
I Would Talk To God On This Matter!

What I Did
Was Upright Sin
BUT
My God Had Not Me Forsaken
AND
Out Of A Prompted Evil
In Mercy For Me
Almighty God
Over-Rode The Desire Of The Devil
AND
Made A Way
That He For Good
Could Make A Use Of Me!

Sexual Sin
Is Sin Against One's Very Soul!
Thievery
Is Sin Against Someone's Property Or Cash Cold!
Willful Destruction Of A Man's Character
Is A Sin Which Makes The Man Poor
But Doesn't Make Us Rich
AND
Blasphemy
Is Proud Sin
Bold Sin 
Against The Holy God
Who Sits On Heaven's Throne
Which Will Get Us Into Hot Hell
By God's Vengeance
Served Cold!

But I Digress.

It Took Time ... But I Learned
God Is Faithful!
Even Though His Love We Spurn
God Forgives
AND
He Has A Thousand Ways  To Save
That We Not Of!

Sin Has Its Own Reward
But
Out Of Evil
Cometh Good
BECAUSE
God Said:
It's A Promise ...

ALL THINGS WORK
TOGETHER FOR GOOD
To THEM THAT LOVE God
AND ARE CALLED
According To HIS PURPOSE!

BUT ... Be Ye Warned

All Sin Takes A Toll On The Soul
AND
Presumptuous Sin
Is Amongst The Worst
For That Type Sin
Always Births Running Foals
AND
Left Unchecked
Before The Living God
Is Going To Cost The Sinner His Soul!

I Went Before The Lord!
I Explained My Predicament!
I Said With My Mouth
That I Was Sorry
AND
Then Humbly Asked:

Father,  
How Do I
Of This Sin Honestly
With A Contrite Heart
Truly Repent?

The Reply Is Simple
Yet
Profound:

Against Me

Against Me Only

Hast Thou This Sin Done!

I Am Your Father!

I Said To You In My Commandments

Don't Do It

But

You Permitted The Devil

Against Me

To Turn You Around!

Your Sin Is Not In Choosing To Believe

The Lie Of Satan

But In Not Choosing To Believe 

The Truth Of Your God

And For This

You've Borne Many Sorrows

That By Obedience You Could Have Avoided

And Lived In Tranquility

Your Life Long!

Remember Eve And Adam!

The Person With So-Called

 Life And Death Power

And

Food And Shelter

Peace And Security

Even Love

Which Often At Man's Hands

Turn Into Hate Power

Has No Real Power

Nor Control Over You!

I Gave Unto You Free Will

A Measure Of Faith

Grace To Find Help

And Grace For Each Day

And

Against Every Temptation

A Sure Way Of Escape!

All Sin Must Be Repented

No Matter If For God

You Are Doing A Good Work

For

You May Work To Save Others

But

For Yourself

You May Find Your Own Salvation

An Unutilized Heaven-Given Perk!

All Sin Is Against The God Of Heaven
And Is Against
- Over Us -
His Sovereignty
AND
By Giving Place To The Devil
We Are Likening Him
To Heaven's Own Royalty!

I Finally Understood
As
Before The God Of Heaven
One Day I Stood:

Every Check Mark

Has To Have Against It

A Corresponding Balance -

By Repentance Paid ... Sin Erased

BUT

By Unrepentance Left Unpaid ... Against My Name

The Sin Stayed!

If Sin Is Left Unrepented
In The Day Of Fierce Judgment
My Subsequent Righteousness
That Is ... My Subsequent Right Living
Will Not The Death Angel's Hand Stay!

A Christian Has No Excuse
For Sin To Remain Unrepented Of
BECAUSE
Under The Agency
The Prompting
Of The Holy Spirit
- As King David Said -
The Sin Is Ever Before You!

For Many, Many Years
Every Single Night
I Would Say:

Create In A Clean Heart,  Oh,  God ...!
Cast Me Not Away From Your Presence ...!
Take Not Your Holy Spirit From Me ...!
Return Unto Me The Joy ...!
Uphold Me ...!

Until
I Finally Understood Why:

The Sin Was/Is Sinful!
The Blessing Was/Is Real!
God IS The Father
AND
His Ways Never Fail!

Then I
With My Heart In My Throat
AND
Truly Repentant
Repented To My God
In The Name Of My Jesus
AND
I Am  ...  Forgiven!

Satan Cannot Outwit God!

What Was Meant

For My Eternal Destruction

Was Overridden

In The Court Of Heaven!

God Knows Our Hearts!

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When We Choose

To Work With

And

For God

God Mercifully Works On Us

To Remove From Our Person

The Putrifying Sores

From The Fraud

To Gain For Us

His Eternal Blessings!

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Trust God!

He Restores!

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Beloved . . .

Is There Something

Anything

That You Need To Place

On The Altar

Of Sacrifice . . . TODAY?!

The Great Commission + PRAYER: Lord, I Crave Your Blessing

God Gave Me Seeds To Sow!
Someone Else Will My Seeds Water!
The Holy Spirit Will Give The Increase
So That My Seeds Will Have
Sons And Daughters!

My Seed-Children
Will Have Seed-Children Of Their Own!
Some May Die A-borning!
Some Will Land On Fertile Soil
Letting All Upon The Earth Know
That The Kingdom Of God
Is Hell's Gates
A-Storming!

I Do Not Know
How Many Generations Of Seed-Children
I Will Beget
For
That Is In The Hands Of God Almighty
Against Whose Power No One Can Bet!
My Task Is To Believe
AND
Do The Work I Receive
So That God Gets All The Glory
For His Will
Will Be Achieved!

God Has Given Precious Promises Unto Man
AND
I Choose To Believe Them
For
These Promises Came
At The Cost Of The Life
Of The Beloved Christ
King Jesus Sweet
So That The Obedient
The Trusting
The Faithful
The Enduring
Will Leave This Earth Forever
In The Chariots Of God
That Don't Rely On Running Feet!

PRAYER:

Father,

I Crave Your Blessing

Upon The Work You Ordained

That I Should Do!

Help Me To Do It Faithfully

Giving Honor

Praise And Glory

Unto You!

Help Me

Not To Rely On Man's Approbation

To Dictate What To Do

What To Write

What To Say!

Let My Will Into Your Will

Be Enfolded

So That I

Willingly

May Be Instructed

Directed

Ordered

By Only You

Each And Every Day!

Let My Faith

In My Jesus

Be Set Firmly!

Let My Courage Not Waffle

In The Winds Of Strife

And

Let Not Sin Beset!

Let My Destination

The Heavenly Home

Be The Breath That I Breathe

And

Let Your Holy Spirit

Be

The Only Spirit

Unto Whom I Will Cleave!

Father,

May Your Holy Angels Ever Surround!

Let Not Disappointments

Cause Me To Frown!

Let Faith

Grace

AND

Mercy Attend My Way!

Let Hope Hold My Heart!

Let The Light Of The Coming Christ

Shine

Even If It Is In A Prison Cell

Or A Forest Retreat

Where I Must At Night Sleep!

Lead Me Home

In The Name Of Jesus Who Saves!

Oh, Lord

Lead Thou Me

Victoriously

On!

AMEN.

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I Will Walk

In Wisdom

Come What May

Trusting In My Jesus Every Day!

Heaven Is My Home

And

Thank God

I Don't Walk Alone

For An Angel Guard Surrounds Me

And I Pray!

PRAYER: Father, I Trust Your Character!

Father,

I Believe In You

For

I Believe In The Transcript Of Your Character

That Says

That You Are The Holy

All-Seeing

All Knowing

Ever Present

Faithful

Healing

Helpful

Caring

Saving

Sealing

Almighty God

Who Created Mankind

And Who

With A Sacrificial Love

Made A Way

To Heaven

For Us To Rise Up!

Thank You For The Glory To Come!

You Created Us

And You Are Jealous For Our Worship!

You Preserve Us

And Are Jealous

For Our Praise!

You Gave Your Only Son

Your Blessed Best

That We May Be Saved

When Sin Is Repented Of

And Confessed

And

You Are Jealous For Us To Return Home

So You Made Available To Us

Prayer

So That We May Petition For Assistance

And Also Commune With Our God

In The Stillness Of Our Souls!

Thank You For The Blessing!

Father,

Some Of Us Love You

Others Not So Much

But

Your Love For All Of Us

Remains The Same

Even Though There Are Those

Who Choose By Sin

To Remain Enchained!

Forgive Us Our Trespasses!

Father,

You To Me Have Been Faithful!

Help Me To You

Be Faithful Now!

Heal My Eyesight!

Garb Me By You!

Fashion Me A Heart Of Flesh

Suitable For The Dwelling-place

Of The Holy Spirit True!

Unstop My Ears

So That I May Hear

The Gentle Call

To Reverent Worship

And

Guide Me Safely

To The Shore

To The Mansion Where

My Lord Christ

Has Prepared For Me

A Heavenly Resting Place!

What Joy Awaits!

Father, I Give You All My Praise!

Oh, Lord

Most Holy

Kind

Gentle

True

I Give To You

My Will

My Way

And

My Self

In Humility Of Heart

For Your Choice Use!

I Am Your Child

Your Servant

And

A Soldier Of The Faith True!

Bless Me Unto The Great Dawning

For

I Love

Honor

And

Bless You

And

Humble Myself Willingly

In Worshipful Service

Unto You Who Alone Is Holy!

Lord, I Draw Nigh In Jesus' Faith!

Father,

I Seek Not Riches!

I Seek Not Fame!

I Hanker Not For Houses Nor Land

But For The Love Of Shiloh

The Great I Am

The Returning One

In Whom Is No Hidden Agenda

Nor Misdirecting Device!

Great Is Our God!

Oh, Lord

Help Me To Live Clean

Denying The Liar

Even The Token Victory!

Help Me Not To Desire To Be Seen And Heard

Nor To Yearn 

After The Trifles And Enchantments

Of The Goat Herd!

Help Me To Live As A Sheep

Walking Faithfully Behind The Lamb

For The Desire Of My Heart

Is To Reach Heaven's Table Land!

Seal Me!

Save Me In The Day Of Battle

In Jesus' Name, I Stand And Plead!

Grant Me, Lord

The Promised Victory!

AMEN.

Oh, Taste And See!

Oh, To Have A Penitent's Heart
Not As One Given To Self-Flagellation
BUT
Wearing The Mantle
Of The Living Faith Of Jesus Christ
Who Died To Expunge My Disgrace!

Oh, To Live The Life Of Faith
Not Given To Selfish Displays
BUT
Given To Walking Humbly Before God
With The Banner:

"Redeemed Of Jesus Christ!"

Shining
Upon My Believer's Hopeful Face!

Oh, For A Tongue
To Speak The Truth
Always With Compassion
While Loving The Sinner Who Once Was I
Treading Waters Deep
Headed Toward The Grave!

My Self Once Lost
Now In Christ Is Found
Striving For The Mastery!
Old Ways Are Eschewed
For Heaven Is In My View
For I
From Sin
Has Been Rescued!

Oh, Taste And See
That The Lord Is Good
AND
Learn That The Devil Is A Liar
AND
His End Will Come Like A Flood!

Trust In The Lord!
He Defends His Own!
His Throne Is Eternal
AND
It Stands Majestic
Alone
AND
He Is Waiting
In The Fullness Of Time
To Welcome The Beloved Saints 
To The Glorious Home!

I Tasted

AND

I Saw

That God Is Good!

Now That I Know

I Daily Eat

And I Don't 

For Earthly Possessions Claw!

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Will You Take A Taste?!

From This Moment On ...! + PRAYER: I Cannot Live Like This ...! Lord, I Love You!

I Had In My Heart
A Little Jesus
AND
I Had In My Heart
A Lot Of My Self!
There Was A Battling Raging
AND
Each Desired The Other
To Take A Knee
On The Back Shelf!

I Often Talked A Walk
I Was Not Walking!
I Often Walked A Talk
About Which I Was Uncomfortable To Enthusiastically Speak
AND
This Was Making My Life Uncomfortable
AND
I Really Needed Heavenly Relief!

PRAYER:

Lord,

I Can Not Live Like This Any Longer!

Please, Do Something For Me!

Open My Eyes

My Ears

My Heart

My Head

Grant Me Understanding!

Lord, God Almighty

Please Grant Me Some Relief!

I Did Not Hear A Stern Voice Speaking!
I Did Not Even Hear A Soft Voice Whispering Inside My Head
BUT
With The Passage Of Time
I Noticed
That Past Pleasures Seemed Asinine
AND
I Was More Toward Faithfulness
To God's Ways
Steadfastly Inclined!

Nonsense Made No Sense!
Defiance Was No Defense!
Recalcitrance Made Me Seem Dense
AND
I Was Studiously Eager
To Get Off
The Waffler's Shaking Fence!

I No Longer Found Pleasure In Waywardness!
I No Longer Found Pleasure In Walking The Contrarian Way!
I No Longer Found Pleasure
In Arguing For Both Satan And God
AND
Finally Recognized
Realized
That I Did Not At All Like Trying 
Against God
To Be In The Right!

Prayer Changed Things!
I No Longer Wanted With Jesus Christ
A Mere Fling!
I Wanted A Commitment!
I Wanted To Belong!
I Wanted To Be With The Lover Of My Soul
AND
I Wanted The Relationship
To Be Permanently
Enduringly
Forever Long!
I Wanted Us!
I Wanted In Him To Never Grow Old!

PRAYER:

Lord,

I Love You!

You See 

Know

My Heart

Better Than I Do!

Please, Won't You Take Me 
In Your Loving Hand

And

Be To Me
My All And All?

When I Ignore You

I Feel Scattered

And
Bereft!

Please, Hold Me

Enfold Me

Keep Me Close

To That Sacrificial Heart 

In Your Spear-Pierced Side
That Sin Cleft!

Forgive Me

For My Myriad Follies!

Forgive Me

For Giving In To My Lying Wants
Adjudged To Be My Needs

But Was Indeed My Gross Greed!

Forgive Me

For Doubting Your Living Holy Word!

Forgive Me

For From You Looking Away!

Forgive Me

For Giving Place To The Devil!

I Am Sorry, Lord!

Forgive Me!

I Beseech You, Please

Is My Penitent Heart's Humble Pray!

From This Moment On

Help Me

In You

To Be Strong!

Give Unto Me Music

For My Satisfied-With-Jesus Song

So That

In The Day A-coming

I May Joyously Sing 

With The Redeemed

In The Overcomer's Glorying Throng!

Thank You, Lord

For Hearing And Answering My Prayer

Presented In The Name Of My Lord

Jesus Christ The Righteous
In Whose Faith I Live
And Breathe!

AMEN!

VESPERS AT THE END OF THE SABBATH: Dangerous Ground

It Is A Dangerous Thing
To Willfully Choose
To Denigrate God 
AND
His Holy Word
Just Because
It Is An Intellectual Pursuit
AND
It Is Dangerous, I Tell You
To Believe
That You Are Protected
By Your Scientifically-Inspired
Engineer-Designed
Non-Stick aka Teflon
AND
Fire-Proof Suit!

Man Is Not Destroyed
For Not Believing The Truth!
Man Is Destroyed
For Choosing
To Believe The Lie
That Satan
- He Of Gross Malice -
Is Serving Up On A Gold Chalice
Surrounded By Incense Odors
Covering The Stench Of The Decaying Bodies
- Of The Souls Forever Lost To Jesus Christ -
That Build His Palace!

Truth Is Truth!
It Needs No Polish
No Color
No Spin!
All That Truth Requires
Is Faith 
AND
Belief 
In The Word
- The Character -
Of The Holy One Speaking!

Start From A Position Of Strength
Believe He Is
Trust That He Will
Walk As If He Is Doing
AND
Soon
In His Faithfulness
You Will Be Partaking!

I Beseech You, Dear Ones
Beloved Of The One Who Died!
Trust Not In Academics
Nor In Pastors, Preachers
Popes, Priests, Princes
Presidents Nor Parliamentarians
Merchants Nor Traders
Monied Storytelling Nor Illuminated Elite
Who For Mammon
Do Enthusiastically Lie!
Nor Mommy Nor Daddy
Neither Friend
Family Nor Foe
Who
Following The World
The Living God Decries!

God Said!
Believe It!
He Created Us!
Honor Him!
He Preserves Us!
Bow Before Him!
He Bought Us!
Walk To Him!
He Calls Your Name!
Don't Balk! Just Go!

Wickedness Is Easy To Do!
Righteousness Requires Strength
So Ask The Living God To Help You!
Live For The Lord
For He Is Returning To This Earth Very Soon
AND
Who Knows?
It Could Be A Bright Morning
A Dusky Evening
Or The Very High Noon!

Selling Your Soul

For Merchantable Goals

Is A Game

That Has Hands

That Always Will Fold

So ...

Trust Your Soul

To Him

Whose Breath Made You

A Living Soul

To Him

Who Has Fire-Tried Gold

That Will Never Turn Rancid

Nor Valueless-Old!

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Faith - Just Like Prayer

Changes Everything!